Dear Prayer Warriors,
Some of you have written to ask how I am. Thanks for your love & concern. Indeed I have so much to praise the Lord for my recovery.
I completed my 7 weeks of radiotherapy (RT) on 30 Oct 2006. I must say it had been the most difficult & painful journey in my life. I was hospitalised twice for a period of some 2 weeks. I was not spared any of the side-effects of RT either. I developed dry mouth, painful ulcers, thick phlegmy saliva, burned neck, some hair loss, weight loss, toothache & blocked nose. I had nausea & constipation, & vomited a lot. I couldn’t drink or eat through the mouth & had to be on tube-feeding. I couldn’t talk for weeks due to the pain & phlegm in my mouth. All in all, it had been a most agonising experience, one which I will never forget for a long time.
Some friends told me I was so strong & courageous. But I was not. Many times when the going got tough, I pleaded with the Lord to take away the pain & suffering. Many times when I felt so weak, helpless, hopeless, discouraged, frustrated & depressed, I wanted to give up the treatment as it was taking a heavy toll on me. But God’s Word came to me, “My grace is sufficient for you.” I am thankful to God for providing me His grace & strength to endure the pain & suffering. I may not understand what is happening to me but I know God has a purpose in allowing the suffering. It’s now 5 weeks since the end of my RT. God’s healing is slowly but surely taking place. God has been teaching me all this while to be patient & to wait upon Him to heal me in His way & in His time.
God has been faithful & good, & has never left me to struggle on my own. Right from the time I discovered I had nose cancer, God had sent many angels to provide for my needs in practical ways. It would not have been possible for me to cope with my illness without support from family & friends. I was overwhelmed by God’s love in action as He sent His angels to minister to my needs. My mum & sister came from Malaysia & the States respectively to look after me. My church discipleship group & friends rallied around me. My greatest support came from my Bible Study Fellowship (BSF) class. These angels took turns to drive me to the hospital for my daily treatment. They cooked & delivered food to my home. They sponsored my liquid food & other needs. They came to sing & fellowship with me. Twice when I had to rush to the hospital immediately, they became my “ambulance” & stayed with me throughout the ordeal. And when I was warded in the hospital, they looked after me & mum. It’s amazing how God worked through these angels to assure me He is Jehovah-Jireh, the God who provides.
To all these angels who had sacrificed their time to minister to me, thank you for journeying with me through my illness. You have truly made a difference in my life.
I’m also thankful to God for the many saints around the world (particularly from Malaysia, Australia & the States) who faithfully uphold me in prayers. To these angels from overseas (many of whom I do not even know personally) who had taken the time to pray, phone or email me, thank you for your encouragement. I’m so thankful to the Lord that His love has drawn us together as one body of Christ. Through my illness, I’ve experienced the beauty of Christian love.
How is my condition now? Last Monday (27 Nov), my oncologist did a nasendoscopy on me & told me there seemed to be no sign of tumour left. I praise the Lord for this good news. But he added that I would need to go for an MRI test in January to confirm if the tumour has completely disappeared.
And how am I now? I now feel so much better physically, although I am not able to eat solid food yet as my mouth is still not completely healed.
Please continue to join me in praising the Lord for His goodness & faithfulness & pray that God will heal me completely in His time. As I trust my life in God’s sovereign hands, I look forward with renewed strength & hope to a new life & relationship with my Creator God who “is the strength of my heart & my portion forever” (Psalm 73:26).
Shalom,
sockkim
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