Finally, I am able to eat soft food

I know, I know......this blog has been silent for a long time, right?

I was partly busy and partly........well, feeling low. You know, that kind of feeling when you just don't feel like doing anything at all? When I finally sat down to reflect on my feelings, I found out that deep inside me, I was getting frustrated with food. I had been losing weight the past few weeks as I was getting quite "sick" of Novasource. I have been drinking Novasource "milk" since Oct 2006. Instead of the recommended 3 packets a day, I was drinking only 1 or 1.5 packets a day. And I was not taking other food as I was still unable to eat. So, how not to lose weight, right?

The Lord must have seen my frustrations & silent tears as I struggled with what to eat each day. I seemed to have little choice as every food I tried stuck on my palate for lack of saliva. I cried in desperation. I had begun to "vomit" at the sight & smell of Novasource. What should I do? There were many times I felt so hungry I thought I might die of starvation. I didn't talk about my struggle with anyone as I presumed no one would understand.

The Lord finally came to my rescue. On Fri 2 Mar, I was so hungry I told myself I must try to eat congee or porridge again. It didn't work previously, but somehow that day, I was surprised I was able to swallow the congee without the rice sticking to my palate. I finished the bowl of congee with tears in my eyes. It was my first proper meal since Sep 2006! I was overwhelmed by the Lord's love for me. As in previous times, God would intervene when I reached my crisis point. He is most powerful when I am weakest. Thank You, Lord for Your faithfulness!

One week later, I tried taking hokkien porridge ("beh"/"moi") with soft dishes like tofu, steamed egg & potatoes. I was so happy I was able to take that too! I could feel that my mouth is improving; it's getting less dry than before. I have been brewing & drinking TCM herbs for the last 2 months. I think my mouth is beginning to gain back some saliva. The other good news is I am putting on some weight!

thanks for journeying with me,
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